Today is Friday. I went to a job interview on Wednesday, Valentine’s day. I went all right, not great because I stumpled on a few questions. My nerves wrecked! I was shaking too. I think I might stop applying for a job for a while. I feel like I’m so confused with myself these days. I am not sure which direction I want to go. Actually, I know but deep in my heart, I know that it’s not practical. All I want to do in this world is writing. But I’m not good enough to be a succesful author. I like to write for my own pleasure. Again, when I do nothing but write I also feel bored. I want to go to work in the library some to open my eyes and improve my own skills. I can’t believe I’m in mid 30’s and still confused like when I was right out of college.
For the job interview, it was a part time job, Young Adult Librarian position. I had to prepare Booktalk that I had to talk about book, recommend and made it interesting to listen. I think I had done it well. I practiced, practiced and practiced. I think it’s benefit that I like novel, so I apply my creative thinking skills to prepare the script. If I could get this job, I would be because of my booktalk performance.
Ugh! While I am writing this, my son has just climbed up on the chair and gotten on the dining table. He pulled things on the counter which next to the table. You wish that you have all the time and all the mind to write with a 16-months-old son. Yeah, it’s not that easy at all.